“Magick should be performed to get results,” admonishes Peter J. Carroll. It is one of the cardinal rules of chaos magick and one I believe in. Yesterday after ritual, it struck me – what results am I looking for? In my quest to be a part of a magical order have I become one of those magicians? Am I just wankering?
This is the problem with the majority of Crowley’s rituals. What’s the fucking point? What was he trying to accomplish? Knowledge and conversation with his HGA? Getting in tune with the universe? Enlarging his penis?
I don’t have a good answer. At least not one that satisfies me. For now, I am considering the Star Ruby exercising my magical potential. A way to increase my ability