Month: October 2014

magicalrecord:

I am finding my new more relaxed attitude towards daily practice to have advantages and disadvantages. The main benefit, I AM participating in almost daily practice, and insights and connections seem to flow better. The downside is, I’m not making much progress in my set goal of exploring the Chaobalah. I am an impatient bastard.

While I still don’t feel like I am being mindful of the element of Earth during the course of the day, I am having many pleasant synchronicities and flashes of inspiration.

Last night, right before I entered the temple, I finished Lon Milo DuQuette’s Homemade Magick and found at the back, without preamble or explanations, Eliphas Levi’s Prayer to the Elements. This evocation I will be adding to my daily practice until I write my own.

Then, as I pondered the idea of foundations and what are my foundations as a magician, I recalled a daily ritual that I used to perform called The Adorations of Thoth. The Adorations were meant to be my own take on Liber Resh. Recognizing that having a ritual to mark the times of day when I change my goals and demeanors, I wrote the Adorations to that effect. With ritual being the foundation of my magick, I have decided to resume daily practice of the Adorations at least until I’m through working with Earth, if not longer.

I drew a 3rd draft of the front of my pentacle, shouted the Prayer to the Gnomes, performed a Banishing of the Wind and went to bed. This morning I started with the first Adoration.

Also today I had a good result with some color magick I had performed. I really need to work with it more often considering my successes. Last Friday, I was reprimanded by a supervisor at work for speaking my mind. During my reprimand, I projected yellow magick in attempt to mollify and gain dominion over the teacher.

Today, I read the write up she sent to my supervisor and found that many of the details she promised to include (like my sincere contrition 😉 ), were not included in the report. Today, I confronted her about it and she was deeply apologetic, exhibiting signs of nervousness and deference. Now she has to amend her report and resend it, which I am sure will weaken its impact on my direct supervisor.

Also found out yesterday that Master Stakasitkos will be leading a class on the Necronomicon portion of the Chaobalah. As much as I desire to be in the class with the author, I just don’t feel I’m ready. I want to work the other portions of the Chaobalah first. At least that material will be accessible when I am ready for it.

Last night, I began by creating a template to practice drawing my new pentacle. I figured I’d draw it out a few times on paper until I was happy with the design before transferring to the pentacle. Upon completing my first rough draft I decided to go with the elemental symbols used on the Portals of Chaos cards instead of the traditional alchemical symbols.

Then I meditated on the nature of Earth with the Earth card on my altar as a focus. My thoughts were scattered but I did resolve to try and be mindful of my connection to the Earth the next day.

So today I did my best, but exhaustion kept me from being mindful. I’d catch myself moving into dream states while I sat in class. I remember one in particular where all of my classmates had their legs wrapped in white cords.

I do find it interesting that whenever I make new discovery about my magick, all of a sudden, I start finding source material to guide my way. Case in point, to prepare for having Taylor Ellwood record a Scroll of Thoth podcast, I listened to his interview on Occult of Personality where he discusses Magical Identity. During the interview I learned that he came to the same conclusion about magick a few years ago, that it is best to be a magician rather than just do magick.

Tonight, as I entered my temple I had a revelation. That my center, my “Earth,” is my temple. There have been too many times in the past where I have allowed my temple to be “decommissioned” because we needed the space, and then spend weeks or months unused until I got off my ass and cleaned it up. No more! I will never again leave my temple dismantled. Even if I find I must take it down for a day, it gets put up the very next.

After that, I made a 2nd draft of my pentacle. Now, after I write this, I will meditate on the Earth card again and get some sleep.