On July 18, 2014 I took the motto Frater IJACEEBO. “IJACEEBO” is an Ouranian Barbaric word meaning “All Gods and Demons are we”. It’s a common practice in many occult traditions to assume a new motto at different points in one’s initiatory career, and for me, this seemed like the time. I’d been Animapurasit (let me soul be pure) through many of my adventures. I’d been Coyote433 through many, as well. I was changing now, though, becoming something different than before.
Phase Two: Invocatory Ritual July 20, 2014
Stomp foot on the floor and cry out HUT (meaning “start”)
Say XIQUAL UDINBAK,(manifest chaos). Say XIQUAL UZARFE, (manifest aethyr). say XIQUAL KUDEX, EACHT (manifest light and darkness). Say XIQUAL ASHARA, DIJOW – (manifest fire and air; they also mean energy and time, respectively). Say XIQUALTHALDOMA, NOBO (manifest water and earth, or space and mass). Say XIQUAL ONGATHAWAS(manifest the vortex), and make a gesture with left hand which suggests a vortex. Shout out XIQUAL CHOYOFAQUE (manifest the work of chaos).
Say the following:
I see how everything fits together. I see the big picture, how all events flow into each other and the fleeting nature of people and concerns of the moment. I filter everything through how it fits together and into possibilities. I am open and to multiple realities, and actively try to open up other’s minds to think outside of the narrow, socialized sphere of reality.
Nobody knows what I’m thinking, not even my closest friends. I’m eloquent, and have practiced, well thought out phrases for everything. I do not need to search for words, because I have already chosen the perfect words for my ideas. I come up with models and rules to describe the patterns I understand with my intuition. I have multiple jobs and projects going on at once, because I am implementing and planning on many of my ideas.
Although I can be ruthless, I actually care about everyone around me being ‘enlightened’. I want to bring people to understand the importance of freeing themselves from petty matters
for reference:
Facing East, visualizing the Alchemical symbol for Air
Spirits of Unconventionality, of Flexibility and Leniency, of Curiosity and Independence, of Interpretation and Unpredictability, of Intellect
Hear me, and make all Spirits subject unto Me; so that every Spirit of the Firmament and of the Ether: upon the Earth and under the Earth, on dry land and in the water; of Whirling Air, and of rushing Fire, and every Spell and Scourge of God may be obedient unto Me.
Facing South, visualizing the Alchemical symbol for Fire
Spirits of self-esteem and of Vigor, of Enthusiasm and Courage, of Passion, Leadership, and Productiveness, of Self- respect, Creativity, Originality, and Resourcefulness
Hear me, and make all Spirits subject unto Me; so that every Spirit of the Firmament and of the Ether: upon the Earth and under the Earth, on dry land and in the water; of Whirling Air, and of rushing Fire, and every Spell and Scourge of God may be obedient unto Me.
Facing West, visualizing the Alchemical symbol for Water
Spirits of Self-awareness and of Tranquility, of Adaptiveness and Modesty, of Empathy, of Unpossessiveness, of Devotion, Reflection, and Authenticity, of Integration and Cooperation
Hear me, and make all Spirits subject unto Me; so that every Spirit of the Firmament and of the Ether: upon the Earth and under the Earth, on dry land and in the water; of Whirling Air, and of rushing Fire, and every Spell and Scourge of God may be obedient unto Me.
Facing North, visualizing the Alchemical symbol for Earth
Spirits of Respectability and Stability, of Tenaciousness and Cautiousness, Reliability and Seriousness, of Objectivity, Punctuality, and Practicality
Hear me, and make all Spirits subject unto Me; so that every Spirit of the Firmament and of the Ether: upon the Earth and under the Earth, on dry land and in the water; of Whirling Air, and of rushing Fire, and every Spell and Scourge of God may be obedient unto Me.
Sit in preferred asana and repeat mantra-”XIQUAL IJACEEBO.XIQUAL ASAR UN-NEFER” (20-30 min)
Shout AEPALIZAGE (immanentize the eschaton.)
In the days that followed I found myself moody. I found myself doing a lot of “out of character” things. I was manic. I was depressed. I was manic. I was depressed.
A tarot reading from July 30
Last night’s Tarot divination regarding my progress so far in my Tyler Durden working.
Octarine (Magic) The Tower False structures, tumbling down, suddenly, violently and all at once. My ideas about Magic have been, and are going to continue to change Black (Death) The Emperor This card generally relates to a sort of permission to be aggressive, brave, bold and in command for me. Some of my recent behavior points in this direction. Blue (Wealth) The Heirophant This one has me sort of stumped, actually. Green (Love) The Fool I’m at a “new beginning” Yellow (Ego) Wheel of Fortune movement, change, evolution, Purple (Sex) Temperance synthesis can be achieved if I’m willing to keep on trying, experimenting, adjusting. I need to open my mind. Lol. Orange (Thinking) The Star My “end goal” is not going to happen anytime soon. But if, like a ship navigating its way, I keep the star in my sights, I will eventually reach what I’m seeking. Red (War) The Moon I may be moody, sensitive, and a little irrational. I’m sort of “at war” with myself.
A facebook post from August 1
My HGA’s a monumental asshole. Granted, since I plucked him from a movie that showed his personality rather well, I suppose i should have known that going in.
The past few days have basically consisted of me not being able to think about anything except the mistakes I’ve made in my life and how I could have handled them better. It’s been a learning experience though. i had a lot of “AHA” moments over the past few days.
A facebook post from August 5
A few minutes ago I changed my phone number. In a short while I’ll delete this page permanently. At the end of the day I’m dissatisfied with my life. After all, I’m the kinda guy that would conjure up his own “Tyler Durden”, right? Let me tell you a little about Tyler. He’s an asshole. He shows you truth, though, and the truth will inevitably set one free. In “Fight Club” there’s a lot of talk about “hitting bottom”. I hit it last night about 6pm. That’s when I saw the joke my life had become. Dont get me wrong, I take full responsibility. That being said, it’s also my job to fix it.
