should i go through with a big change in my life? im hesitant bc i dont know if i know enough about myself to make the decision at this time

No, seriously folks, this happens to me every time I do
tarot. I will pull the same cards again and again in a given session. I have
even been researching and practicing new ways to shuffle. ¯_(ツ)_/¯

The Princess of Wands

I don’t think you are ready. Take some time for
self-exploration first. Talk to different people.