Month: August 2016

XVI Tower

Not anything a full on nuclear assault can’t cure.

Something is about to blow up. Can’t say if your ability to
love will survive. That’s the thing you need to concentrate on. Protecting your
ability to love. Nurture this. Be open and let yourself have feelings even
though they make you vulnerable.

ahcult:

Tuesday, 23 August 2016
Waning Gibbous Moon

11:30 AM
Made an Imgob Bumina idol last night to aid in landing a job. Wrote a journal entry per @niaskotl‘s suggestion. Hail Imgob Bumina!

3:00 PM
Sat for a 10 minute meditation utilizing motionlessness and breath control sitting in the Burmese style on a pillow on the floor against my bed with my eyes closed. My legs and feet did not bother me but my back hurt a little during meditation, so it could be worth trying out other postures. Started with a 4-count breathing cycle: four seconds in, four second hold, four seconds out, four second hold. My mind wandered a fair amount while focusing on the counting but maintained fairly stable breathing. I tried not to worry if my breathing faltered a bit and was pretty successful with that. Thought about phosphene gazing, noticing the colors behind my eyelids shifting from red to green to gold and back to green. I also felt a round flower-like shape opening and closing to my breathing. When my timer went off I felt like I could definitely have sat for longer. I also noticed that the light in my room was not changing much so I am wondering if the phosphene gazing could yield some meaning. I was worried that I would swallow a lot during my mediation but I did not at all! My stomach did make some weird noises though.

From Wikipedia: A phosphene is a phenomenon characterized by the experience of seeing light without light actually entering the eye. The word phosphene comes from the Greek words phos (light) and phainein (to show).

11:00 PM
Had sex in front of Imgob Bumina and anointed the idol with my and Nia’s cum. Hail Imgob Bumina!

One of my tribe doing the Great Work! You need to be following @ahcult because shit is about to get real 😉

XIV Art

You have pretty much made it. Just don’t get cocky. Make
sure you make minor adjustments when necessary. Also, this is not an excuse for
failing to improve.

ahcult:

Sunday, 28 August 2016
Waning Crescent Moon

2:12 AM
Had *incredible* sex in front of Imgob Bumina and anointed the idol with my and @niaskotl’s cum. Hail Imgob Bumina!

11:40 AM
Overslept and woke up to a message from Nia. Promptly forgot most of what I was dreaming but later remembered a large party with a lot of extended family and randos at a huge, fancy resort. I do not know what the party was for and I hardly got to participate because I was running around the hotel a lot.
I also remember at one point being outside of a large rundown mansion with severely unkempt and overgrown plants. There was a large tree full of strange pods and spores and I found myself waking up in one of these pods with large burr-bug like things all over me.

5:33 PM
Sat for a 10 minute meditation utilizing motionlessness and breath control sitting in the Burmese style on my bed with my eyes closed. Started with a 5-count breathing cycle: five seconds in, five second hold, five seconds out, five second hold. No interesting phosphene phenomena to report on. I felt very distracted today. I yawned and swallowed a few times during the meditation and straightened my posture a bit.

XIII Death

Something fundamental in the way your relationship works is about
to change. Maybe it’s a higher level of commitment? Maybe it’s an external
stressor that has changed the ways things have been. I have been married for twenty-five
years and I can tell you this: People do change. In a long standing
relationship people are gonna change at least a half dozen times, and not
always at the same time. When this happens, you’re gonna have to find out if
the new you is still love with the new them. If you figure it out, you’re one
of the lucky ones.

Four of Cups

You could save this relationship if you really wanted. But
you don’t. You’ve got things to do and can’t see how you’re gonna do those in
your current situation. In other words, if you’re asking, you already have the
answer.

Seven of Wands

You are going to need to work for it. Don’t think for a
second your old tricks will work. They may seem effective, but you don’t want
to give the impression of a repeat. Use aspects of your self that are as yet
unknown to them.

Over the last century, a new power narrative has emerged that warps archaeological data into a specific shape the way a magnet affects iron filings. It is the unspoken belief that humanity is on a journey from worse to better, from primitive to complex, uncivilized to civilized. Our civilization of perpetual war, total surveillance, obesity, runaway mental illness, overmedication, environmental degradation, widespread unemployment and scientific materialism has nothing to learn from the past because it is better. Enjoy that smartphone made by suicidal Taiwanese slave labour. Continue shopping….

Any attempts to consider our Palaeolithic ancestors as more advanced than
previously thought still carries the patronising tone of a complete stranger complimenting the artwork of a handicapped child. ‘Look at how clever our inferiors were,’ we say, as we die, fat and unhappy, waving our iPhones around for signal.

– Gordon White, Star.Ships