10/03/11
I wanted to use a mudra today, a hand position that is supposed to invoke certain feelings if used during meditation. I have mentioned before my magus motto – Quero Regnum – which means “I seek the Kingdom.” Its a surprisingly Christian theme (surprising for me anyway), that expresses my desire to use my actions to create a utopia based on love and peace here on earth. In some ways, I view the magickan’s journey through the Tree of Life in reverse. I believe we need to bring heaven to us here in Malkuth.
To fit my motto I decided on the “Connect to the Earth” mudra. I have never seen myself as much of an environmentalist, or an Earth worshipper. This was more to connect with my motto. Yet, when I used it, I came to the realization that whatever we do as human beings, we really need to clear it with the planet we live on, which I believe to be an entity. After this, I sought a connection with her. I felt a profound sadness, and not anger, but frustration that she has been trying to get our attention, but we have not been listening.