A.K.A. Scroll of Thoth, Frater T, Cobblepot
I am Frater Threskiornis(1), 4* in The Magical Pact of the
Illuminates of Thanateros(2). I initiated at 43 years old. Way too fucking late
if you ask me.
I have come to a crossroads in my magical practice. All of
my former accumulated knowledge, and my attempts at intellectualizing my way
through building my own paradigm, now looks just silly to me. None of that
knowledge was gained through, and within gnosis(3).
I find myself continuously pulled toward the wisdom that
lies within the Witch’s Sabbat. At the height of the proceedings. Beyond the
planned rituals and the bonding. In the deep of the night when the party gets
real good, and you are totally at ease with yourself and everyone around you. That’s
when the Devil appears.
I have seen him and he is a bad-ass motherfucker. Because he
really wants you to be exactly who you are.
Yet, my great patron, the Mighty Djhuety. Thoth, he who
creates with a word. Pulls me back and says, “Slow down man, you still need to
read, and you still need to keep your shit together.”
I believe I have hit the second stage(4) of being a
magician. I have been on this kick where all the things I loved as a child, but
abandoned as silly as an adult, I am giving them another try. I have gained the
ability to enjoy sitting outside, fireworks, huge concerts. My huge white ass
won a dance contest? It’s been kind of amazing.
And, my skills in divination have increased dramatically. I
feel very confident reading tarot for other people.
But I’m still waiting for my big breakthrough. Truly designing
my own paradigm. But I know it’s somewhere between the Library of Thoth and the
Blasted Heath
(1)
The scientific name (genus) for the African
Sacred Ibis
(2)
The largest and most respected international
order of chaos wizard. These are some bad ass magicians. I, however, am a lowly
little 4* (the fourth degree being the lowest level initiatory member), making
my way in the Pact, looking for a dollar here, a dollar there….
(3)
Dammit kids, I am going to say that YES some
drugs are good for you.
(4)
The first being, you really get rid of your
fears. You feel as if whatever life throws at you, you can handle it.