Author: James
Dream Journal
10/20-10/21/11
I watched the new episode of the Walking Dead last night, and was hoping for some good zombie dreams. No such luck. At least I didn’t dream about a hotel.
The only thing I remember is riding an old grey dirt bike through the woods. It was autumn, with leaves all around. At one point I ran out of gas and had to push it up a long, almost unending hill.
Dream Journal
10/19-10/20/11
Swore I would not record another dream with a hotel in it, but this one did not really involve the hotel itself.
It started out as a recurring dream, where I go to the GenCon gaming convention with my friends. It is being held in this strange futuristic hotel complex with massive tall buildings with glass elevators running up and down.
Then we leave, and we have so much stuff we have to rent a trailer for the drive home. I remember driving down a dark highway, and seeing the trailer detach form the hitch. It’s still attached by the chains though, and sways back and forth behind me. We have to stop, and we end off going to this old mental asylum.
The asylum is set up in a series of cabins. This is where the perspective of my dream changes where I am watching what happens to the inhabitants of the asylum. I see a girl, middle school age, very goth in a Victorian dress. The others at the asylum refuse to let them stay in their cabin because she is constantly haunted by ghosts. During the night, she must put up with their shrieks and wails, and banging on the cabin.
In the morning, a group of doctors come in to talk about her psychosis. During the interview, she discovers that she can summon the ghosts, which the doctors find disconcerting, but they still treat her as a patient.
After her interview, she sees some of the other children being kept in the asylum, a boy and a girl. They are dressed in Victorian-goth as well, but they are laughing and smiling. The ghost-girl takes offense at this, and summons the ghosts to attack them and they are frightened off.
This is where I come back into the dream, except I am Neil Gaimen. I tell her that she must let people be who they want to be, even if they don’t treat her the same.
Dream Journal
10/17-10/18/11
I woke up, realized I was once again dreaming about a hotel, and decided not to write down the details. I vaguely remember my wife working as a waitress, and a strange unisex bathroom.
I’m really sick of dreaming about hotels. I know it’s subconscious guilt about not having a job. I would be happy to go the rest of my life without working at another fucking hotel.
Xaos – Chaos Magick: My genius – by definition
Xaos – Chaos Magick: My genius – by definition
xaos:
As I worked through my ceremonial magick training, I was exhorted to develop my ‘knowledge and conversation with my Holy Guardian Angel’. Depending on what I was reading and who I spoke to, my personal HGA was either an external lifeform that would deign to work with me if I approached it…
Magick Working Journal
10/17/11
Getting back into the swing of things with meditation and banishing now that my circle is complete. The space definitely feels warmer and more secure. The downside being that I am now constricting myself to a 5-foot circle during banishing. Since I am using a 4-foot sword that doesn’t leave much room to manoeuvre. I am sure I will get used to it.
Meditation did not yield anything specific, but once again, it just felt good to do it.
This weekend, I brought my wife with me to my class on ceremonial magick. She mentioned to the owner how I have performed banishing rituals for others to help them ward off negative influences. The store owner now wants me to offer this service to customers. I’m not sure how I feel about it. On one hand, I don’t like the idea of performing magick for money. Besides any other considerations I don’t know how effective it would be for the person. On the other hand, I don’t mind helping people. And the end of my unemployment money is looming up on the horizon.